its about time...

...i had a new post...

• i for sure fall behind on this whole blog thing
• i feel that my heart is to easily swayed...
• ---i have a pointless crush yet somehow i still manage to have feelings for him
• at the same pathetic time i have a little crush on another person
• grey's anatomy has caught me up in its drama
• i am excited for christmas i do love that holiday
• i should really go to sleep
• i promise more pointed and often blogs in the future

bangs...

...i know have them...

•       I have not had bangs since I was around nine years old...lets just say its a big step. I think i like them. Thanks Susan :)
•       Bangs is a new step in my life toward a more sophisticated me...as is my goal to read a book a week....
• This week i read " Loss of Innocence" by Ron and Carren Clem...Not sure what it will be next week.
• ----great book 
• I am thinking maybe "Because He loves us"- Elyse Fitzpatrick

questions...

...about "tomorrow"

• i feel like my job is pointless...i dont actually help people and I HATE THAT
• i want to make a difference, make someones life better...
• would love to find a job that did makes a difference
• still not sold on being a teacher...
• maybe a social worker, a police officer, or a lawyer
• I know Karlina make up  your mind...goodness gracious
• a friend told me something the other day but someone one else swore her to secrecy so she wont give me more details...good to know she is trustworthy but a little disappointing on the other end because i cant figure out what it is lol...LOVE YOU LEANN!
• I NEED TO GO TO BED...an actual real post tomorrow

more...

favorites!!!

• Bones( the tv show)
• adoption
• heath coffee ice cream
• peanut butter
• shoes
• the color green
• art
• flowers
• quelf
• big sky bible camp
• movies
• making new friends...

12...

of my favorite things

• Singer/songwritter music
• books
• pumpkin pie blizzards
• pumpkin spice lattes
• fall
• rainy days
• Remember the titans
• laughter
• dancing in the rain
• winter hats
• my new printer
• YOU

two...

blogs in two days (SHOCKER)...

• so last night i was reading Genesis chapters 1&2    
• This verse was the first that stood out to me "The earth was without form and void, and darkness was over the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters. 1:2" 
• Something about this verse fascinates me...especially the part about the Spirit of God hovering over the face of the waters...It created such a cool mental picture,but not really a mental picture if you  know what i mean...its just so cool trying to picture the spirit of God hovering over the world....something about it makes my heart happy...not really sure why
• The verses on God creating humans, also really got to me in a new way...i got this picture of God as a sculptor forming man and then breathing into the nose, and i can just see man coming alive,its so cool , and then God forming woman...its so interesting..
• Okay so that whole section got me thinking about how even before God hovered over the face of the waters or was a sculptor of man, he knew what man would do, about the fall, the evil man would create, and do to each other. Yet He decided that man was worth it all, that creating them was worth the price... it gets to me...before God sculpted man, or even sculpted me He knew what i would do, who i would be, all my failures and successes and decided it was worth it, that I was worth it. It amazes me. 
• Those were my thoughts last night as i drifted to sleep, so i thought i would share them with yall.

time...

....for a new blog post

• for some reason i love writing the bullet blog...limh(laughing in my head)
• i dont think people should say lol unless they are actually laughing out loud thus LIMH or LOTI(laughing on the inside)
• i start real actual college a week from Monday,it scares me...dont ask me why i just wonder if i can do it
• I am going for elementary education, i love kids and figure i would love to work with them for the rest of my life
• i take my placement test tomorrow...hopefully i dont get put in remedial classes...would be a hit to my pride...hey at least i can admit it 
• i cant wait to switch to part time so i can have a life....yeah for lives haha
• my beautiful big sister that i love a lot is moving back to montana(to billings so its seven hours away) but i am excited
• its currently almost one am and i am drinking coffee and watching ncis(i need to get on a regular sleep schedule...took a four hour nap today)
• sadly my hair is damaged,i left the frosting kit on their too long
• i am a fan of randomness(obviously from my blog)
• i love today's weather, of rain and overcast, ah i love rain it just makes my soul happy
• my favorite song of the moment is "King of Anything" by Sara Bareilles, its kinda mean but i love it and its catchy...also "the finish line" by Train
• Shawn McDonald needs to come to kalispell...though his divorce does make me question my love of his music,but i cant help it, its super great and speaks to my soul, so i figure God is still using it
• i miss babysitting, so if you need a babysitter this fall give me a call...i love kiddos
• this fall i hope to build some new friendships and build more on some old ones,so if you want to hang out let me know:) i would love to get to know you better
• i just got a twitter update by Rick Warren its a great quote "God lets you choose whether you'll be arrogant or anointed but you cant be both"
• okay so i need to go to sleep that is all for now!!
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lunch...

...was interesting today...
          
                so it all started when i asked my coworker megan were she went to eat lunch and if i could join her...she ate at the picnic table outside and of course said yes...well we are sitting there just talking about movies and such when are coworker travis walks by and says something about us sitting there eating and he was smoking so i was like are you walking around the building smoking? which somehow turned into the fact he hates the fact he smokes and wants to quit and then how he does not like himself and then somehow about souls and what the bible says about souls and the fact he is agnostic and megan is something like agnostic and then i asked how you could believe part of the bible and not all of it...that just doesnt make sense to me...so we discussed that for awhile and we did not get to finish our conversation...but i enjoyed it a lot...it was good and the first time in a LONG time i discussed things like that with people who do not believe like i do at all...it was so good for me and refreshing...i hope to finish it tomorrow and that we all grow from our discussion...who knew who knew....

life...

sometimes is lonely...

                    Do you ever feel?

• you dont know where you fit in
• you have this passionate desire in your heart you are pretty sure wont come true?
• how did i get here?

 ok so enough depressing thoughts... i finally have a job its at a bank of america call center...its interesting...when i get on my normal schedule in like two weeks i will work tues-friday 2:30pm to 11pm and sat from 9-5:30pm with sunday and monday off...its going to kill my summer...i am going to miss camp SOOOOOOOOO very much...that place hold such a special place in my heart....

• sometimes i feel like i want to move somewhere where i know no one and see how i would do
• my current life plan is to attend fvcc for two years and then transfer to the university of Hawaii at monoa
• i think i am finally giving up on my happily ever after....
• sometimes i wonder who my true friends are

hello world...

again...

• I suck at this whole blog thing...lets see if i can do better
• school is over in a week, and i am excited but i shall miss my classmates...
• I will miss pick on Daniel days...just wont be the same...poor guy
• i have another job interview tomorrow i hate them, because so far no job
• this is the weekend of bonfires for me; one Friday night and one Sunday night...i am excited
• i really must manage my time better but i just love hanging out with people
• I am in this REALLY great small group on Thursday evenings...i love it and the people in it...its grand and helps me to grow
• I am giving up my search for the green eyed, scarved man...sad panda
• i have no idea what i am doing with the rest of my life and it scares the crap out of me
• I am horrible at staying in touch
• even because of the above i love my friends and family
• i am tired and really must go to sleep
• love to you all...btw is anyone reading this?

okay...

...i am back...tomorrow or sunday i shall begin the adventure of blogging agian...prepare to read lol love you guys