lunch...

...was interesting today...
          
                so it all started when i asked my coworker megan were she went to eat lunch and if i could join her...she ate at the picnic table outside and of course said yes...well we are sitting there just talking about movies and such when are coworker travis walks by and says something about us sitting there eating and he was smoking so i was like are you walking around the building smoking? which somehow turned into the fact he hates the fact he smokes and wants to quit and then how he does not like himself and then somehow about souls and what the bible says about souls and the fact he is agnostic and megan is something like agnostic and then i asked how you could believe part of the bible and not all of it...that just doesnt make sense to me...so we discussed that for awhile and we did not get to finish our conversation...but i enjoyed it a lot...it was good and the first time in a LONG time i discussed things like that with people who do not believe like i do at all...it was so good for me and refreshing...i hope to finish it tomorrow and that we all grow from our discussion...who knew who knew....

life...

sometimes is lonely...

                    Do you ever feel?

• you dont know where you fit in
• you have this passionate desire in your heart you are pretty sure wont come true?
• how did i get here?

 ok so enough depressing thoughts... i finally have a job its at a bank of america call center...its interesting...when i get on my normal schedule in like two weeks i will work tues-friday 2:30pm to 11pm and sat from 9-5:30pm with sunday and monday off...its going to kill my summer...i am going to miss camp SOOOOOOOOO very much...that place hold such a special place in my heart....

• sometimes i feel like i want to move somewhere where i know no one and see how i would do
• my current life plan is to attend fvcc for two years and then transfer to the university of Hawaii at monoa
• i think i am finally giving up on my happily ever after....
• sometimes i wonder who my true friends are