...do these eyes say...

... good sense of humor to you?...

So my cousin works at Macy's and friday i went to see her do her dance performance there well i met her co-worker Jim and so today when Jayme went to work he told her that i had a good sense of humor because he could see it in my eyes! If thats not crazy i dont know what is... also her boss said i was shy lol and then earlier last week like wednesday i think i met her friend Ben from her old job and he texted her later and said i seemed like a sweetheart but i was shy... This is the first time in my life i have met people and then had them comment on what they think i am like..its actually pretty entertaining to see how people judge you, ya know? Well i thought i would share that with yall loves to you

...its a wonder...

...what God can do...

so awhile back i was dealing with some matters of the heart, i couldn't really talk to a person because of my feelings about that person, so i did the "thing" and told them that my side of the relationship had to change, well its wasn't much later one night in chapel at camp i chose a random worship song we hadn't done all summer;
Surrender

I'm giving you my heart, and all that is within

I lay it all down for the sake of you my King

I'm giving you my dreams, I'm laying down my rights

I'm giving up my pride for the promise of new life

And I surrender all to you, all to you

And I surrender all to you, all to you

I'm singing You this song, I'm waiting at the cross

And all the world holds dear,

I count it all as loss For the sake of knowing You

for the glory of Your name

To know the lasting joy, even sharing in Your pain

©2000 Vineyard Songs (UK/Eire)Words and Music by Marc James

and for some reason well i loved it the first time, but it just really hit me the second day we sang it...all of a sudden i was on my knees crying( i am sure my girls thought i had lost my mind) that it needs to be something i am living not just singing and its amazing how God can change your heart, your feelings,and your attitude... i am sharing this with the whole not talking thing because God changed my perspective on that He is ultimately in control and i should surrender to Him my feelings and desires and He will take care of them, and i shouldn't shut people out of my life just because it might make my life a little uncomfortable or anything of the sort... i finally felt like i could share this um not sure why or if anyone cares..but there you go.. i actually haven't talked to anyone at all about this yet lol.. love you mucho mas

...the next step...

....of the journey of my life and past happenings...

So camp is over...it was a sad sad day! But the last two weeks were good! All boys was fun with my girls, it was sad to say goodbye to Kristine and Thomas but mostly Kristine:) But they had to go so they could get married lol:) ha ha sad we had to miss the wedding... well lets see what else about all boys week... i got dehydrated and really tired so didn't feel so well one day till i had a three hour nap and drank some water then i felt better lol... its weird what tiredness can do to you, i felt like i was going to throw up... so ya i just read my last post holy cow random weirdness:)!
ok so then it was all girls junior and i had fifth graders. My girls were great i loved them a lot. I didn't have any bad cabins this summer( just some campers i didn't like as much as the other ones:) but no bad ones) God surely did bless me but then our God is pretty much the rockinest thing ever! Ok so ya Jesse and Heidi Jost were the speakers, it was good. It just didn't seem like the gospel was really presented which made me sad, but the girls enjoyed it and got stuff out of it which is always beneficial. Well then it came time to say goodbye to my girls and that was sad man i loved spending time with such godly woman who inspire me to be all God created me to be, and allow me to be who i am and love me still.
So then i rode with Rebecca to helena to stay with my aunt and cousin till school starts the 27th well school doesnt start till the 3rd but oreintaion stuff starts the 29th. Well i am so enjoying my time with my Aunte'B and cousin Jayme. They are amazing and its great to see how we have grown up and how we can now be friends unlike a lot of the time when we were little. I will share more about my time after i leave because then it will be complete:) though today Jayme has a dance team thing at Macys and i am SO excited to see her dance.
Ok so about school I will be going to Montana Bible College in bozeman. I could only be a part time student this fall, but i will be full time spring semester. So that ment i had to find a place to live which was a little scary well then i texted Angie and told her about it, so she told me i should call Kim because she might know of a place and so i did so and Kim called me back and said the place she was staying didn't have any more room but she had heard of this other house that had a room left and gave me the girls name Rachel and her number so i called and got the place. All i know is there are three other girls around my age, they are Christians, one is named Rachel, guys are not allowed to spend the night,it is an alchohol free house and that they like kids. All she asked me was how old i was and then told me those things the other girls or she had decided on and asked if i liked kids. So it was really easy..actually i just called and got the girls names lol... well God is good and i have to go love yall

...matters of significance...

... are not found here:)...

ya i know what i say is usually random going ons and nothing really of significence well be prepared for nothing:) haha so last week was jr high and i loved it.. it was one of my favorite weeks... i love the whole jr high age they are pretty much some sweet kids:), and then this past week was all boys..haha so work crew for us four girl counselors haha the adventures of the Happy, Pepper,Ducky,and Charm:) well pepper and i went to rent a movie and i got told i looked 13 or 14 maybe 12 thats always fun stuff:), went t0 applebees one night for dinner (that was good to just chill with my girls...) so we have one more week left sadness apon sadnessess:P haha...
I am currently addicted to the twilight sega of books(about vampires and such things:) also a song by josh turner featuring anthony hamilton that i listen to about four times a day haha lol...lets see oh yes sweedish fish also.. i think thats about that on that front...
i miss rachel mucho mas of course but am glad its all going well and that she loves africa... so ya hmm.... let me know if you want more details...oh yes my heart is beating just so ya know..( i know you were cursious...) though i am turning angie into a vampire this weekend...or maybe no so we can be gypsies when we are 30 and still single :)