...and i am venting...i guess its more of an emotional outbreak...
Fakeness, I hate hate hate hate it!!! My life has been filled with people who say one thing and then are not there in the end...the long hall...i feel like its such a common thing among Christians and it bothers me... Christians have clicks and i am not saying i am perfect or that i dont participate in this but its wrong... I can understand being drawn toward people you have things in common with but leaving people out is wrong... I think one of the reasons i am on this rampage is because well relationships are important to me and if i have made any of you not think that i apologize.
I can definitely admit i am not the greatest at them, i try but i feel as if i fall short all the time...I know i have mentioned this before but i think bozeman ruined this for me... I had three amazing woman of God for friends and we were inseparable...in my heart thats the type of friendship i desire...we teased each other,were there for each other and just had an all around blast. I miss that. I am finally after a year starting to in some situations feel like i fit in...the sad situation ( i am not trying to be dramatic or anything of the sort just sharing my heart) is my church is not one of them...I absolutely love the teaching and the worship...but other than that i dont really feel as i fit in...i have been going (two years this summer) and i do not feel as if i have made any amazing friendships... this is most definitely mostly my fault but it bothers me and i dont know how to go about changing that....any ideas friends? I can pretty much say i know i am going to notice this more because well in a week my work schedule changes and i will be working mon-fri 1:30-6:30 i know i am going to end up with lots of time on my hands and its going to drive me nuts....i thrive off spending time with people..heres praying something changes....
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I feel your frustration Karlina. I've been there, and really I am there.
Specifically, I'm thinking about the feeling of "fitting in," or the desire to build deep friendships. Like you, I'd rather have a few very close friends than a lot of shallow friends.
But you know what I've realized? It takes time... and you can't force a friendship to happen. Especially depending on your stage of life or what you're doing at the moment, sometimes it can be really hard to make friends. But I think I've come to the realization that these sorts of things can't be forced, and they just have to develop.
I pray that some serious friendships will develop for you!
Come hang out with me. :) Except that I am old... and have a two kiddo's...sometimes I am fun. AND I miss seeing you. We need to have a good talk to catch up. I will be praying that the Lord sends you just the friend you need. I struggle with the same thing. Good friends are hard to find. Especially the ones that see and share your heart. Love you!
If that's your new work schedule, then you definitely can come work out with me!! I love your energy and think you are a great friend. Even to a boring ole mom like me:)
i would love that lori (you are not old :)), and Jes are you kidding me you are not old and i love children so i would love to see you and see the new little one...you are right Greg it takes time and i find that i struggle with patience lol and ill pray that you find some of those friends as well greg and you too jes!
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