new years day...

and my feelings...

KO, so my news years plans were not the intricate but they were special.. i went on a "date" with my best friend rachel...we went to the thai palace, then went and rented like four movies(death race,i can do bad all by myself(tyler perry play), ghost town, and two weeks notice) then went for smoothies and shared a blondie brownie at applebees, then came home and watched part of diary of a mad black woman with momma lisa,and then we watched two weeks notice..i like that movie alot...so as you can see man are we ever cool...haha...it was nice to have a "date" with her... so ya then today rachels parents,me,rachel and her two four year old brothers went sledding,then we got sarah("our" sister who is 14, actually rachels little sis), and matt(rachels boyfriend) joined us and we went to perkins for dinner, then matt,rachel and i rented wanted and came home and watched it...cant say i am a fan...just not my style i guess... tomorrow or such we shall watch death race...must say i am excited lol...

ok so my feelings i was just thinking how sad it is that i am not really friends with anyone i went to high school with, we never really talk to each other and that makes me sad,but i must say its pretty much my fault..i never really made an effort with them and now that makes me sad:(...

also today was kinda emotional for me...there were a few tears shed...silly friend...i love them alot,but hey lets face it they are flakey lol and can really hurt my feelings, i know they mean well and i actually believe they do love me,but sometimes in my dramaticness i forget that or have too high expectations for this person...you would think by now i would know that but i guess i keep hoping...but no matter what i love them and always will they are my friend and i am loyal...so ya there are my feelings and such ha